Its three days past the elections. I started 11/9/2016 with a post on my Facebook page about how my heart sank as I heard the news of who was supposed to be my president and how I was going to break the news to my soon to be 9 years old son; specially since I have always tried to teach him not to be a bully, to respect women, to respect others, not to lie or cheat, etc. etc. But now he gets to see a person that is a bully, racist, disrespects everyone, lies and cheats become the president of one of the largest nations on earth! I decided to sit with my feelings and my girls (I think this is a good time to mention that inside my head its much like the cartoon Inside Out). I had a chance to see why people may have voted for Trump and also wonder about the big picture. And a big thank you to a 16 years old young man, Amir Kalantary, for putting it all into perspective more clearly with his Facebook Post to show how much we (the non-republican camp) have been sore losers, to consider the reasoning of the people that voted for soon to be president Trump and the mistakes of the Democratic party overlooking the voice of the larger population asking for change. I looked back at my own life and how that there was also so much good that came out of each horrible time/tragedy in my life and that those bad times is what was needed for me to get closer to and receive my wishes.
So let us be real, open and honest with ourselves and with each other. At some point in our lifetime each and every one of us (yes including me) has been a bully, a victim, liar, cheat, racist, and made fun of some other culture/community/nationality. Just think back how many times you may have told even a white lie; or said a joke that was making fun of a group; or the times you influenced someone by playing to their weaknesses in order to get what you wanted (definition of bully). I know you are all reading this and thinking there is no way that you have ever been a bully or racist. But when you consider that a bully is by definition someone that knows another persons hot buttons (what makes them tick, scared, angry, sad) and uses them to manipulate the person. Every time you have used guilt or fear to manipulate a situation or someone you have been a bully, so this alone covers Catholics, Muslims, Jewish communities (even if you are not religious but grew up in those communities), parents and most kids. Every time you have made a joke making fun of a certain group of people you have been a racist; my Iranian brothers and sisters hands up on this one. Every time you were behind a car that is going slow and getting close to the lanes and you made a comment that it must be a female or Asian or both, yes you are being a racist. So now you are all saying, come on that is taking things a bit too far and yes you are probably right. But the point is that society is OK and good with a certain level of bullying, racism, and lying as long is a white lie, the joke is funny and its a White Color bullying. Or better yet as long as its not in your face lie, racism or bullying.
peace and healing to our world. And the way to unite, love, heal, and peace starts with each and every single one of us to first recognize, accept, and to love without judgment but with compassion our own different personas; because its then and only then that we can truly see the others with loving, accepting, compassionate eyes and step into their shoes and realities. One side does not have to be wrong for the other one to be right and vice versa. We are all different sides of the same coin; we all share common fears, worries, sadness, concerns and judgments; and we all want better lives for ourselves and our families. It is not about right or wrong, good or bad; by accepting and showing compassion you are not saying it is OK to bully, be racist, lie and cheat. By accepting and showing compassion and love you are shining your light bright and becoming a full size mirror for the other to see themselves so that they can see, accept their parts and so that they no longer react from a place of fear, anger, judgment and guilt.
We have let the media and our pasts run our lives and the present moment. We have allowed the media to bully us using our fears and judgments. So lets get started with cooling our hot buttons so that they can no longer be used against us and we can stand naked, fully showing all parts of ourselves even the parts we wish no one would see, look in the mirror and love what we see. And use that same loving compassionate eye when you are looking at others specially the opposition and those whom we feel have wronged us.
I see this time as a time of hope, clarity, love, compassion, standing up fully present, stepping away from negativity and drama, away from those that want to use our fears and judgments against us. Let us be the light and mirrors for each other so that we can brighten the path to peace and unity. It is only with light that darkness can vanish. But even darkness serves a purpose; it is so that we can find the light inside and light the way for ourselves and others.
We are all creation in progress, life in progress. Light the candle inside; make it stronger; make it shine brighter and brighter; be a compass for others to find their way out of the darkness. Love, Light and Peace. Atousa :)
For quite some time I have been wanting to do short videos to share my experiences and thoughts in hopes of providing guidance. Through out my life I have studied the work of many gurus and spiritual masters as well as receiving my own guidance from the universe. So hopefully by guiding you through some things that were challenges for me you will have an easier ride. My first of many video blogs to come :) to is to get you started on self awareness and me to be able to get over the hump of recording myself :)
So its been a while since my last blog and I have missed you :)
The reason that it has been a while is that lots has been going on in my life, which really translates to the universe giving me exactly what I needed or asked for; since my mind likes to play tricks on me, my ego likes to say she is in charge, and of course the trouble starts leading me to some house cleaning to let go of old unwanted beliefs and thoughts.
This all started after my Riding The Cosmic Wave artwork and blog. At that point I had so many past beliefs and thought processes that came up, which helped me learn how to ride the cosmic waves in order not to drown. I was enjoying riding the waves, and during the process of riding the waves I was able to let go of the old thoughts and beliefs that no longer served me. I was able to see that I was using the beliefs and thoughts as a protection mechanism which was no longer needed, and that I was safe to let them go.
Once again I was back in my good place filled with love and joy; which is the time I created Some Kiss We Want. The inspiration came to me before bedtime as I was meditating and suddenly I started reciting the Rumi Poem, Some kiss we want, in my head. As I was reciting it I had the image of the lovers kissing and the feeling of that kiss and the words in that poem is what inspired my digital artwork "Some Kiss We Want." If you sit back, listen to this music while watching the artwork, I believe you can see exactly how this artwork came together. Lovers in a magical forest, moonlight and the colors are representations of the different chakras.
However, my worrying/doubtful thoughts wanted to be in charge. This time being used to their games I did not follow. And my mind came back at me with full force trying to see what it could find in the deep corners that I had not cleaned up. At this time I created my next artwork Whirling Out of Nothingness. The feeling I had during this time was that of a whirling dervish. I felt that in the spinning you are letting go, you are surrendering, and all that it remains is love and purity. And as I started the artwork I came across the Rumi Poem which you can read in the description of the artwork. Read the poem as you are looking at the painting and it will come together for you. My colors are usually chosen as chakra colors.
Then again all the whirling did not manage to clean the dark cracks in the corners. And I got my biggest challenge so far spiritually which brought interesting challenges in my life. I felt as if I was standing at the gates of heaven. And here I dont mean "Heaven" in terms of "Heaven and Hell"; but rather the feeling that you are standing at a place that all that you want, all the goodness, all the peace, it is all there behind the gate. You are seeing the light shining through the cracks in the gate, and feel that you are so close to getting what you want, if only you could be empty of worry, empty of thought, and have faith to open the gate and walk through. The artwork Open the Gate was started with these feelings and the quotes that matched it showed up in the process of creation. As you understand where I was emotionally/mentally/spiritually when I was creating this artwork and read the inspirational quotes (in the artwork description), you too will be standing at the gate.
I stood at the gate for a long time and I still have not fully opened the gate. And standing at the gate I reconnected with a belief that there is not one way to travel this life; there are many paths and they are all interconnected. Along each path you make decisions, and realize that there is no right or wrong decision; because the paths are connected and you are eventually going to get to where the bigger you is intending to go. Specially if you believe that you are a soul/spirit that is eternal, then you have eternity to go through the paths, and they all come from the root of the root of your soul which is pure, which is love. So this process started Eternity - Infinite Ways to Return To Your Soul. And it was toward the end of it when I went to read my Rumi Poems and the first one that I opened was Return to the root of the root of your own soul, you can read in the artwork description. In this artwork you see many infinity symbols, representing eternity, infinite paths, and infinite ways to reconnect with your soul. I have a little surprise in the middle of the artwork, harder to see on purpose, representing root of the root of the soul.
I would like to end this blog with a quote from Mooji and a song by Avicii "Wake Me Up". As always remember to keep on Watching, Living, Loving and most important of all Enjoying the journey.
"The beautiful thing that you are discovering now is that you are ALREADY here, but you have been imagining that you are a journeyer on his way to here." Mooji
So I have been trying to write this blog for some time, but every time I thought I got the hang of riding the wave a nice wave would come and try to knock me down, and to be honest the crashes were not so fun.
So the idea for this blog started when I finished my painting "Riding the Cosmic Wave." When I started this painting I was in a pretty peaceful place and I had the image of what I wanted to paint in my mind. I started the painting, and the next night I came to add to it, but I was in, lets just say a different place. The next morning when I looked at the changes I had made the night before I was not happy at all with the result. Of course I did what anyone else would do and said to myself "I am going to FIX it" ... so funny that little word FIX gets us in trouble more often than we like to think :) :) :) And yes you guessed it; it got me into trouble. Because when I was done with my changes to the painting my thought was "What the **** was I thinking" "This is not even nearly close to what I had in mind." At this point I had to just walk away. When I came back to it the next day, I said to myself "just consider this painting as experiment." And that is exactly what I did.
The next move on this painting was about mixing blue and green layers of different types of acrylic paint. Still no luck; had to step away again. Next time I returned, I tried a technique that I wanted to try for some time but because of fear of ruining the painting I never tired it. However this time since I already considered the painting ruined and as experimental, I had no fear. And as I started lifting layers of paint to reveal other colors , the painting and I clicked. I can not even begin to describe the fun and excitement as I was lifting the layers ... It was as if I was being freed. This painting was meant to come this route and bring me with it so I could remember to let go of my fears, trust, and just ride the cosmic waves.
When I was finished with this painting it reminded me of the process a surfer goes through. A surfer does not fear the waves nor does he/she fear crashing in the wave. The surfer's purpose is to ride the wave no matter how big or small and to enjoy the process. The surfer does not question the destination, he/she simply enjoys riding the waves.
And as I learn to ride the waves and enjoy the waves no matter how big or small, crash or stay on top, what shape or form ... I simply trust and joyfully ride the waves :)
During the process I came across the quote from Deepak Chopra (below) which was a perfect match to what my painting and I were going through. As always remember to keep on Watching, Living, Loving, and most important of all Enjoying.
"Situations seem to happen to people, but in reality, they unfold from deeper karmic causes. The universe unfolds to itself, bringing to bear any cause that needs to be included. Don’t take this process personally. The working out of cause and effect is eternal. You are part of this rising and falling that never ends, and only by riding the wave can you ensure that the waves don’t drown you. The ego takes everything personally, leaving no room for higher guidance or purpose. If you can, realize that a cosmic plan is unfolding and appreciate the incredibly woven tapestry for what it is, a design of unparalleled marvel.” Deepak Chopra
I was at a children's museum yesterday and observed these young kids playing with two robots and they were having the robots battle on this platform. I noticed the physical expression on these kids that they were even fighting with the joysticks thinking that if they put their entire force on the joystick it would give the robot more power. The funny thing was that they missed the point that the platform had been marked for tic tac toe and there were pieces of Xs and Os that they were to use the robots to move the pieces and play a game.
Then it came to my attention that as humans we have become accustomed to struggling and fighting. We believe that in order to achieve anything we must struggle and fight for it. In order to gain we have to fight. Examine some of the few statements that you would come across during a day, and most of them really sound silly once you sit down and think about it:
To take this to another level takes us back to all the fights and struggles we have internally, which are too difficult for us to see or accept. Instead of looking inward and accepting; we tend to blame and push off our internal fights on others and make it about the other person or about a situation. Once we stop fighting with others, stop fighting with ourselves then we can gain peace and love internally. Fighting is just another habit or belief that can be changed. If we change our belief that life is not about fighting and struggling and rather about enjoying and allowing then we would see less situations to fight and more situations to have peace. Starting today be aware of what you are fighting against?
I would like to end with the following quotes, and remember to keep on Watching, Living, Loving, and most important of all Enjoying.
“I think the highest forgiveness is to accept that creation is thoroughly tangled, with every possible quality given outlet for expression. People need to accept once and for all that there is only one life and each of us is free to shape it through the choices we make. Seeking can’t get anyone out of the tangle because everything is tangled up…it’s much easier to keep up the fight between good and evil, holy and profane, us and them. But as awareness grows, these opposites begin to calm down in their clashes, and something else emerges- a world you feel at home in.” - Deepak Chopra
“The unawakened mind tends to make war against the way things are. To follow a path with heart, we must understand the whole process of making war within ourselves and without, how it begins and how it ends. War’s roots are in ignorance. Without understanding we can easily become frightened by life’s fleeting changes, the inevitable losses, disappointments, the insecurity of our aging and death. Misunderstanding leads us to fight against life, running from pain or grasping at security and pleasures that by their nature can never be satisfying.” - Jack Kornfield
Artist thoughts on life, love, happiness and spirituality.