Yesterday was my one year anniversary as an Artist :)
I have been absent from my blogging for a while due to holidays and life ... well let's just say that I think I can get my law degree in Family Law right now ;-)
I wanted to give my appreciation and thanks to everyone that has and/or continues to support me and my work by liking, commenting, sharing my posts on social media sites, visiting my website, purchasing my artwork, sending me comments, recommending my work, coming to my exhibitions, promoting/featuring my work on your websites and/or blogs but most of all for your love and support :)
One year ago I pursued a dream of a career that in most people's mind was "crazy and unrealistic"
Well in the past year here is what I have accomplished as an artist/photographer:
Dont take life so seriously, enjoy, love and everyday be thank-full for even the little things that are happening around you from a beautiful sunrise, a smile or kind word from a stranger or a friend, your favorite song playing on the radio (or pandora in my case :) ) , hugs, kisses ... and so much more :)
I'll be starting my blogs again soon. This was just a quick one to say a big THANK YOU and a BIG BIG SQUEEZEE HUG to each and everyone of you.
Stay tuned .... THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING :) :) :)
Keep on Watching, Living, Loving and most important of all enjoying the journey. I will leave you with one of my recent favorite songs <3 xoxo :)
So its been a while since my last blog and I have missed you :)
The reason that it has been a while is that lots has been going on in my life, which really translates to the universe giving me exactly what I needed or asked for; since my mind likes to play tricks on me, my ego likes to say she is in charge, and of course the trouble starts leading me to some house cleaning to let go of old unwanted beliefs and thoughts.
This all started after my Riding The Cosmic Wave artwork and blog. At that point I had so many past beliefs and thought processes that came up, which helped me learn how to ride the cosmic waves in order not to drown. I was enjoying riding the waves, and during the process of riding the waves I was able to let go of the old thoughts and beliefs that no longer served me. I was able to see that I was using the beliefs and thoughts as a protection mechanism which was no longer needed, and that I was safe to let them go.
Once again I was back in my good place filled with love and joy; which is the time I created Some Kiss We Want. The inspiration came to me before bedtime as I was meditating and suddenly I started reciting the Rumi Poem, Some kiss we want, in my head. As I was reciting it I had the image of the lovers kissing and the feeling of that kiss and the words in that poem is what inspired my digital artwork "Some Kiss We Want." If you sit back, listen to this music while watching the artwork, I believe you can see exactly how this artwork came together. Lovers in a magical forest, moonlight and the colors are representations of the different chakras.
However, my worrying/doubtful thoughts wanted to be in charge. This time being used to their games I did not follow. And my mind came back at me with full force trying to see what it could find in the deep corners that I had not cleaned up. At this time I created my next artwork Whirling Out of Nothingness. The feeling I had during this time was that of a whirling dervish. I felt that in the spinning you are letting go, you are surrendering, and all that it remains is love and purity. And as I started the artwork I came across the Rumi Poem which you can read in the description of the artwork. Read the poem as you are looking at the painting and it will come together for you. My colors are usually chosen as chakra colors.
Then again all the whirling did not manage to clean the dark cracks in the corners. And I got my biggest challenge so far spiritually which brought interesting challenges in my life. I felt as if I was standing at the gates of heaven. And here I dont mean "Heaven" in terms of "Heaven and Hell"; but rather the feeling that you are standing at a place that all that you want, all the goodness, all the peace, it is all there behind the gate. You are seeing the light shining through the cracks in the gate, and feel that you are so close to getting what you want, if only you could be empty of worry, empty of thought, and have faith to open the gate and walk through. The artwork Open the Gate was started with these feelings and the quotes that matched it showed up in the process of creation. As you understand where I was emotionally/mentally/spiritually when I was creating this artwork and read the inspirational quotes (in the artwork description), you too will be standing at the gate.
I stood at the gate for a long time and I still have not fully opened the gate. And standing at the gate I reconnected with a belief that there is not one way to travel this life; there are many paths and they are all interconnected. Along each path you make decisions, and realize that there is no right or wrong decision; because the paths are connected and you are eventually going to get to where the bigger you is intending to go. Specially if you believe that you are a soul/spirit that is eternal, then you have eternity to go through the paths, and they all come from the root of the root of your soul which is pure, which is love. So this process started Eternity - Infinite Ways to Return To Your Soul. And it was toward the end of it when I went to read my Rumi Poems and the first one that I opened was Return to the root of the root of your own soul, you can read in the artwork description. In this artwork you see many infinity symbols, representing eternity, infinite paths, and infinite ways to reconnect with your soul. I have a little surprise in the middle of the artwork, harder to see on purpose, representing root of the root of the soul.
I would like to end this blog with a quote from Mooji and a song by Avicii "Wake Me Up". As always remember to keep on Watching, Living, Loving and most important of all Enjoying the journey.
"The beautiful thing that you are discovering now is that you are ALREADY here, but you have been imagining that you are a journeyer on his way to here." Mooji
Here is the blog I promised on my Facebook page about my second half marathon experience.
Just to give you a little background I did a half marathon October of 2012 which I trained for and I did finish at a pretty descent time 1:51:56. Well this year I started training late and during my training I was having issues mentally prepare for it. I knew physically I was ready but my latest journey of awareness had brought up some things that kept me occupied. So that was the first thing that I had to adjust to in order to get ready for the run this AM. And I think I managed to get in a pretty good shape mentally and physically (not as good as last year but pretty close).
Now, those of you that know me, also know that I ONLY run with my music and my Nike + app. I can do without the Nike + app but I MUST have my music. I have special playlists, I have songs for when I need an extra pick me up. As a matter of fact the day before the race I was talking to my friends about the fact that the race organizers try to discourage headphones and music but there is no way that I would be able to run without my music. I didn't even think of it as a "Habit" but if someone would talk about alcohol, drugs, or cigarettes like this you would say they definitely have a Habit.
So what do you know, the universe decided to break me out of my habit the hard way :) :) From start of the race until a little past mile 4 I was having a great race. I was feeling great mentally and physically. I was enjoying the race, and actually I was at a 8:27 mile/min speed. I specially loved that my friends were sending me cheers on my Nike + app; which I have to tell you did give me more energy; the cheers were so much fun :) :) So a little after mile 4 my app started pausing and restarting by itself, and since I was in the middle of the race I couldn't really stop and figure things out. After fidgeting with it for a little, while running, I decided I was going to close the app and just listen to my playlist. It took some time to do that, but still even the music was not playing; it was pausing and restarting and skipping. Panic set in ... OMG I am only on mile 4 and I have another 10 miles to go ... what am I going to do without my music!!!!!! so this went on for a good mile. Then I said to myself OK this is crazy you still have a long race ahead of you and you want to finish it and you have to find a way. And then for another mile I was trying to get myself to find a way of how I was going to make it.
Then it came to me to just "be" (well I should give the credit to my partner in crime since we had a conversation the night before on the subject). I decided to accept the fact that I have a habit of using my music ("music junkie") as a way to block out my thoughts and all the other noise, plus I do use it as a performance enhancer, and I use music in order to relax, feel good and get happy. Next I accepted my mental and physical condition. Then I said OK lets just make the best of it and finish the race. Well I finished the race at 2 hours (don't know my official time since I did not check the papers)
Last year when I finished the race I felt I could have still ran for another 3 or 4 miles, I did not hurt anywhere and I had so much energy that I had a party at my house for my son with 10 of his screaming little friends and their moms and dads :) :) This year I was in pain and I could not wait to get home and lets just say I was pretty pooped for the rest of the day.
Am I ready to break this "Habit" of being "music addict", well I do want to be able to run and quiet my mind and other noises without having the music. Will I still have music while I run, etc. You Bet :) :)
This time I will end with one of my favorite music which is in many of my playlists :) As always remember to keep on Watching, Living, Loving, and most important of all Enjoying. LOVE xoxo
Artist thoughts on life, love, happiness and spirituality.