So its been a while since my last blog and I have missed you :)
The reason that it has been a while is that lots has been going on in my life, which really translates to the universe giving me exactly what I needed or asked for; since my mind likes to play tricks on me, my ego likes to say she is in charge, and of course the trouble starts leading me to some house cleaning to let go of old unwanted beliefs and thoughts.
This all started after my Riding The Cosmic Wave artwork and blog. At that point I had so many past beliefs and thought processes that came up, which helped me learn how to ride the cosmic waves in order not to drown. I was enjoying riding the waves, and during the process of riding the waves I was able to let go of the old thoughts and beliefs that no longer served me. I was able to see that I was using the beliefs and thoughts as a protection mechanism which was no longer needed, and that I was safe to let them go.
Once again I was back in my good place filled with love and joy; which is the time I created Some Kiss We Want. The inspiration came to me before bedtime as I was meditating and suddenly I started reciting the Rumi Poem, Some kiss we want, in my head. As I was reciting it I had the image of the lovers kissing and the feeling of that kiss and the words in that poem is what inspired my digital artwork "Some Kiss We Want." If you sit back, listen to this music while watching the artwork, I believe you can see exactly how this artwork came together. Lovers in a magical forest, moonlight and the colors are representations of the different chakras.
However, my worrying/doubtful thoughts wanted to be in charge. This time being used to their games I did not follow. And my mind came back at me with full force trying to see what it could find in the deep corners that I had not cleaned up. At this time I created my next artwork Whirling Out of Nothingness. The feeling I had during this time was that of a whirling dervish. I felt that in the spinning you are letting go, you are surrendering, and all that it remains is love and purity. And as I started the artwork I came across the Rumi Poem which you can read in the description of the artwork. Read the poem as you are looking at the painting and it will come together for you. My colors are usually chosen as chakra colors.
Then again all the whirling did not manage to clean the dark cracks in the corners. And I got my biggest challenge so far spiritually which brought interesting challenges in my life. I felt as if I was standing at the gates of heaven. And here I dont mean "Heaven" in terms of "Heaven and Hell"; but rather the feeling that you are standing at a place that all that you want, all the goodness, all the peace, it is all there behind the gate. You are seeing the light shining through the cracks in the gate, and feel that you are so close to getting what you want, if only you could be empty of worry, empty of thought, and have faith to open the gate and walk through. The artwork Open the Gate was started with these feelings and the quotes that matched it showed up in the process of creation. As you understand where I was emotionally/mentally/spiritually when I was creating this artwork and read the inspirational quotes (in the artwork description), you too will be standing at the gate.
I stood at the gate for a long time and I still have not fully opened the gate. And standing at the gate I reconnected with a belief that there is not one way to travel this life; there are many paths and they are all interconnected. Along each path you make decisions, and realize that there is no right or wrong decision; because the paths are connected and you are eventually going to get to where the bigger you is intending to go. Specially if you believe that you are a soul/spirit that is eternal, then you have eternity to go through the paths, and they all come from the root of the root of your soul which is pure, which is love. So this process started Eternity - Infinite Ways to Return To Your Soul. And it was toward the end of it when I went to read my Rumi Poems and the first one that I opened was Return to the root of the root of your own soul, you can read in the artwork description. In this artwork you see many infinity symbols, representing eternity, infinite paths, and infinite ways to reconnect with your soul. I have a little surprise in the middle of the artwork, harder to see on purpose, representing root of the root of the soul.
I would like to end this blog with a quote from Mooji and a song by Avicii "Wake Me Up". As always remember to keep on Watching, Living, Loving and most important of all Enjoying the journey.
"The beautiful thing that you are discovering now is that you are ALREADY here, but you have been imagining that you are a journeyer on his way to here." Mooji
So I have been trying to write this blog for some time, but every time I thought I got the hang of riding the wave a nice wave would come and try to knock me down, and to be honest the crashes were not so fun.
So the idea for this blog started when I finished my painting "Riding the Cosmic Wave." When I started this painting I was in a pretty peaceful place and I had the image of what I wanted to paint in my mind. I started the painting, and the next night I came to add to it, but I was in, lets just say a different place. The next morning when I looked at the changes I had made the night before I was not happy at all with the result. Of course I did what anyone else would do and said to myself "I am going to FIX it" ... so funny that little word FIX gets us in trouble more often than we like to think :) :) :) And yes you guessed it; it got me into trouble. Because when I was done with my changes to the painting my thought was "What the **** was I thinking" "This is not even nearly close to what I had in mind." At this point I had to just walk away. When I came back to it the next day, I said to myself "just consider this painting as experiment." And that is exactly what I did.
The next move on this painting was about mixing blue and green layers of different types of acrylic paint. Still no luck; had to step away again. Next time I returned, I tried a technique that I wanted to try for some time but because of fear of ruining the painting I never tired it. However this time since I already considered the painting ruined and as experimental, I had no fear. And as I started lifting layers of paint to reveal other colors , the painting and I clicked. I can not even begin to describe the fun and excitement as I was lifting the layers ... It was as if I was being freed. This painting was meant to come this route and bring me with it so I could remember to let go of my fears, trust, and just ride the cosmic waves.
When I was finished with this painting it reminded me of the process a surfer goes through. A surfer does not fear the waves nor does he/she fear crashing in the wave. The surfer's purpose is to ride the wave no matter how big or small and to enjoy the process. The surfer does not question the destination, he/she simply enjoys riding the waves.
And as I learn to ride the waves and enjoy the waves no matter how big or small, crash or stay on top, what shape or form ... I simply trust and joyfully ride the waves :)
During the process I came across the quote from Deepak Chopra (below) which was a perfect match to what my painting and I were going through. As always remember to keep on Watching, Living, Loving, and most important of all Enjoying.
"Situations seem to happen to people, but in reality, they unfold from deeper karmic causes. The universe unfolds to itself, bringing to bear any cause that needs to be included. Don’t take this process personally. The working out of cause and effect is eternal. You are part of this rising and falling that never ends, and only by riding the wave can you ensure that the waves don’t drown you. The ego takes everything personally, leaving no room for higher guidance or purpose. If you can, realize that a cosmic plan is unfolding and appreciate the incredibly woven tapestry for what it is, a design of unparalleled marvel.” Deepak Chopra
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